I think about death "a lot" but it's in quotes because how much is that? These days that means a few days a week. In my 20s it meant infinity times each day. Now I think of it for release from my physical pain and then it was psychological (and religious) self loathing. That time eventually came to an end. I don't know if or when this current difficult moment will pass. I don't know if I'll adjust or find relief or deteriorate more. Good times! #Rart
I hear you. I've had it on my mind on and off for the last 30 years, but it's been daily lately. Sorry to hear you're sitting in the same boat (Charon's?), but welcome, shipmate.
@WearsHats thank you for engaging on a difficult topic. It is actually kinda nice to hear "welcome, shipmate."
One thing I keep looking for is a place to discuss heavy things on my mind. Maybe the fediverse works for that. I'm not sure. It's so hard to find fellow travelers. So again thanks very much for replying.
Every discussion feels ephemeral. Hashtags feel weird. Are there places to have long conversations? (He asks as he hits character limit.)
It helps not to be alone. If you use CWs and appropriate hashtags, you may find others. But, yeah, it can feel weird, and it means inviting engagement from people who have only seen the one post.
There are online forums like Heart Support that let you make longer posts and get feedback from people who have been there.
For longer conversations with friends I use Discord or Signal.
@WearsHats I don't have friends who connect online. I have few friends who are comfortable with topics deeper than their latest purchases. The fediverse by its nature is the first place in a long time where I felt like making connections. I've been burned by past investments in capitalist platforms. I'm wary of Discord & Signal tho I know nothing about them. I'm looking for new connections around specific topics. If that's possible there then maybe...
Discord is corporate owned, but it's a collection of individual servers (like Mastodon, but without federation between them), each dedicated to its own community. No ads, no algorithms. Funded by people paying for little extra perks. You might find some communities worth joining.
Paul-Gabriel Wiener
in reply to Rob 🏳️🌈 RMiddleton.Art • • •Content warning: mh- negative mental health
Rob 🏳️🌈 RMiddleton.Art
in reply to Paul-Gabriel Wiener • • •Content warning: mh- negative mental health
@WearsHats thank you for engaging on a difficult topic. It is actually kinda nice to hear "welcome, shipmate."
One thing I keep looking for is a place to discuss heavy things on my mind. Maybe the fediverse works for that. I'm not sure. It's so hard to find fellow travelers. So again thanks very much for replying.
Every discussion feels ephemeral. Hashtags feel weird. Are there places to have long conversations? (He asks as he hits character limit.)
Paul-Gabriel Wiener
in reply to Rob 🏳️🌈 RMiddleton.Art • • •Content warning: mh- negative mental health
It helps not to be alone. If you use CWs and appropriate hashtags, you may find others. But, yeah, it can feel weird, and it means inviting engagement from people who have only seen the one post.
There are online forums like Heart Support that let you make longer posts and get feedback from people who have been there.
For longer conversations with friends I use Discord or Signal.
Rob 🏳️🌈 RMiddleton.Art
in reply to Paul-Gabriel Wiener • • •Content warning: mh- negative mental health
Paul-Gabriel Wiener
in reply to Rob 🏳️🌈 RMiddleton.Art • • •Content warning: mh- negative mental health
Discord is corporate owned, but it's a collection of individual servers (like Mastodon, but without federation between them), each dedicated to its own community. No ads, no algorithms. Funded by people paying for little extra perks. You might find some communities worth joining.
Signal is a private messaging platform.