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The truth is, I suffer from a very real social blindness: I don’t know how I’m perceived by others.

I mean, I have absolutely no clue—no ability to see myself from another person’s perspective.

I don’t know if I give people good or bad vibes. I don’t know if I’m considered “nice” or a “jerk”. It’s all a complete mystery.

in reply to Chris Trottier

at some point when I pursue and attain a higher-paying #tech #job, I want to be perceived as just a workhorse who has no social life or dating life in the outside world. A total #NPC. Just a #blank #slate.
in reply to Chris Trottier

It's much easier to be a nerd, a wimp, an autismbro in the IT world than it is in any other profession, especially a customer-facing job.

It's why I picked this line of work in the first place. I knew early on that the only way I could make a living would be by staring into a screen, looking at obfuscated obscure symbols that the boss doesn't want to look at. The boss, ultimately, doesn't know if I'm incompetent or wasting time on one of my shitty down-days.

in reply to kute null pointer 🤖

@KuteboiCoder Let me tell you, as someone with autism, I find the finance sector way easier for me than the tech sector.
in reply to kute null pointer 🤖

@KuteboiCoder I support my family, and probably will indefinitely.

But I do this while working entirely by myself, never talking to anyone—I am a ghost.

in reply to Chris Trottier

What you post here comes off as a perfectly nice human being, though a lot more addicted to old computer games than me!

If I met the ghost in grey sweatpants in the tight confines of a corner store it might be different! Might.

The inability to read that yourself isn't something I can help with really. In fact, if you come up with an answer I'd like to get a write up, cuz I haven't the foggiest!